Fill Me Up!
I have had a considerably rough couple weeks at my job. Especially this week. This week was unique in that, the chain of events that happened gave me a great amount of anxiety, which isn’t normal for me. I usually adapt and flow with happenstances quite naturally. I can be a perfectionist sometimes, but usually, I’m pretty flexible. Last week I was annoyed and frustrated. This week I was tired, a bit overwhelmed, and super anxious. But to even further escalate my anxiety, it doesn’t help that I can also be a suppressor. I have a tendency of giving people the benefit of the doubt, even at the expense of my needs or wants. I let things roll off my back or just swallow it until my stomach becomes engorged with negative and nasty feelings or a storm of emotions that have no room to go but up and out.
And let me just tell you, today was an “up and out” kind of day. I finally got home and plopped on my couch. I rehearsed and replayed every situation that happened and even thought over my to-do list for the weekend and there it came…up and out. I don’t know how long I cried Y’all, but just when I thought I was going to sulk for the rest of the night I kept hearing the 23rd Psalm over and over in my head. I finally pulled it up on my Bible app and I read it three times. Each time I read it my crying and gasping for air slowly became me sitting up and wiping my face. In a moment, my focused shifted and I had just taken all my junk and gave it to Jesus. I took my mind and eyes off of myself and my agenda and put them on God and who He is. This reminded me of who I am and to whom I belong. I thought, “God’s going to handle all of this, I don’t have to.”
I got up and turned on my worship music to listen to while I washed my hair and guess what song came on? “Fill Me Up” By Tasha Cobbs. I asked God right then, “Please fill me up. I need more of you.” I realized the more I have of God, the smaller my problems seem to look or matter anymore. I said to Jesus, “I know you got my back Lord! You always do! This is just making me stronger and my job is just building a better therapist…I’m in training.” We’re in training Y’all!
This isn’t even the post I had scheduled to upload but I had to postpone it to come and encourage someone, even if it is one who is feeling overwhelmed and discouraged. I want to give you the three verses God gave to me.
- Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. 1 Peter 5:7 (NLT).
God wants our baggage. He wants our fears, worries, anxieties, frustrations, cares. We aren’t wired or created to carry all of that. God is saying, “Give it to me. I’ll take it!” Tell him straight up, “God I give you ______. I can’t handle it on my own, but I know you can!
- Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. 2 Corinthians 3:17 (KJV). WHEW JESUS! This is one of my all-time favorite verses, ever! Liberty! Freedom! The more we feed our Spirit man through relationship, reading the word of God, praying, worshipping, spending time with him, the more we set the atmosphere of our lives for God to move freely. This brings liberty! God’s presence brings a fresh wind and calms storms. His presence is life changing. We should all pray for more of the Presence of God in every area of our lives.
- We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. Romans 5:3-5 NLT. We’re only getting stronger!
“Fill me up, until I overflow. I wanna run over, I wanna run over…”
I pray this encouraged you. Stay in the fight, my friend!
Annette D ❤