Firstly, let me say THANK YOU LORD! Today marks my one year anniversary of starting my blog! I have learned so much and I am looking forward to learning much more! There is so much I want, and I believe God wants for this blog and I plan on working on some of those things in this 2nd year, as the Lord leads me. I am so excited!! If you have any topics or questions you would like to read about or we can learn about together, I am open to that. I don’t know everything there is to know about everything, but I have been blessed with some awesome resources. Whether it be the word of God, people, or a video…I’ll do what I can in my power to help you find the answer!
This has been the word of the week. I was actually inspired by a friend who chooses a word every year to center her year around and this year she chose “intentional”. So four months in, I’ve found my word, “balance”.
My husband always has the most random apps on his phone. One of the apps his has now is a stress measuring app. It monitors your heart rate and tells you where your stress level is. Every time my husband measured his stress level, his heart rate was always low and steady, revealing a “Low Stress Index”. Whenever I would measure mine, it always read “High Stress Index”, and my heart rate was often high and sporadic. He finally looked at me after our 2nd measurement and asked, “What are you stressed about?” So many thoughts ran through my head. I didn’t look stressed, but the pressure I constantly put on myself daily was taking a tole.
I always have a running to-do list in my head. I’m usually one step ahead of whatever I’m currently working on. I’ve noticed myself going above and beyond trying to be prepared for the next day, to only have a to-do list for that day as well. I was chasing my tail, and my tail was in lead. Even my boss said to me one day, “…You’ve been looking tired.” What? That is so embarrassing. Work needed to be perfect and my home needed to be spotless with a hot meal on the table. Then I realized all the things I had been neglecting and sacrificing to paint a perfect picture. My health, happiness, quality time with my husband, family, and friends, sleep, my energy level, and patience. I needed this things to be a whole and well functioning person with a pleasant attitude.
I made a commitment to myself that I was going to allow room for God’s grace in my life and stop trying to do things out of my own strength. That if I had cooked a meal and there was dishes in the sink, I would enjoy dinner with my husband instead of washing the dishes. I had to trust and have faith that God would allow me time to do them the next day or allow room for my Husband to do them for me. If I had paperwork to complete at work and my next day was packed, I would do what I could and trust that God would adjust my schedule for paperwork time. Walking in grace. Not laziness and procrastination, but grace, favor, faith, and balance. I am determined to give God the opportunity to bless me and to preform a miracle on my behalf. I want God to get the glory, not me. He can have it! Especially on Sunday’s. God made that day for rest and recovery. Last Sunday my husband and I went to church, came home to some left over chili and corn bread, and fell asleep watching a movie. Now that’s a balanced life!
I’m learning to receive God’s grace and granting myself grace. If we don’t look after ourselves who will? Unnecessary stress and busy body spirit is an attack from the enemy that wears us out, and causes us to miss the hand of God.
Do you struggle with balance? Let’s discuss it in the comments below. Or if you don’t, what are some ways you find balance. Teach us!
I love you all,
❤ Annette D.