Now that I have finally graduated grad school, I am currently on the road to taking my board exam. It’s actually coming up really soon so pray for me and my classmates! I’ve always wanted to be someone great and help a lot of people but with big goals sometimes comes big fear. I didn’t realize how much my goals would challenge and stretch me. I have learned SO much about myself in these past couple of months preparing for my board exam. I’ve learned that my belief in myself and my abilities has decreased and I doubt EVERYTHING. I remember being a kid and believing I could do or be anything I wanted to be. I would go out for sports teams that I had NEVER played in my life with full confidence that I would make the team…and I would! Like most of us, as kids, I believed I could be whatever I wanted to be. Whether that was a ballerina or a general surgeon. There was no inhibition. Why do we lose that? Why do we allow life to keep us from believing in ourselves and even God for that matter?
I literally stay awake at night thinking about my career. I question whether I’m ready to have children’s lives in my hands. I question do I know enough, am I ready? This lady at church prayed for me this morning and in her prayer she said something so amazing. She said, “help her to know that you, Lord, don’t call the equipped, you equip the called.” Meaning God will prepare us. God has placed inside of us and is growing all the skills and assests we need to be successful. We can’t trust soley on ourselves…we need God. With God everything is better!
This whole thought process got me to thinking about two scriptures. One of them is Luke 18:17. It says, “I tell you the truth, anyone who doesn’t receive the Kingdom of God like a child will never enter it.” Here we see that God wants us to approach him with childlike faith, as a child would with their parents. When we were little we believed the impossible! God wants that from us now. He wants us to come to him with a childlike belief, after all we are his children! Now I don’t care what nobody says this part has been a little difficult the older I have gotten. It’s SCARY to fully surrender to God but it’s so worth it! It’s a little intimidating to say “God I don’t know what will happen in the future but I choose to trust you no matter what. But I assure you it’s the best decision we can possibly make! Because honestly guys, we don’t know what we are doing! Lol
The next verse I thought of was Hebrews 13:21, “may he equip you with all you need for doing his will. May he produce in you, through the power of Jesus Christ, every good thing that is pleasing to him. All glory to him forever and ever! Amen.” That is my prayer for us today that we trust God enough to believe he will equip us with all we need for that thing he is calling us to. So believe! If God brought us to it, he will bring us through it! Let’s have faith! We may not see or know how our lives will play out, but with God, hope and confidence is ours! Be blessed! I love y’all!